I’m Back & Book Project

Oh it has been a long time. I actually have an excuse which is not really one. I have lost my password and nothing worked anymore and exam phase and bla bla bla. But I’m back. I will write essays about the environment and feminism again.

Over the last few months I have been writing daily. It gives me so much pleasure. At the moment these texts add up to 90 000 words… You would think that a student had better things to do. But writing in the evenings is always the thing I’m looking forward to most (Well, not every day … aka writer’s block or evil cycle of self-hatred)

What have I been working on?
It’s a book. You guessed it. My twenty-third (or so) attempt to writing a book. I think everyone is laughing about me and my projects. This one is different, I like to tell myself. It’s non-fiction.
I always loved to read fiction but I could never make enough stuff up to fill a book. I would be overwhelmed by all the things I had to consider. What would they eat? How would their kitchen counter look like? What would the pictures on their walls show? Nope, too much work.
Then I discovered non-fiction. First, through self-help books and then through books about the environment. Which got me thinking. I am an environmental management student. Why not write a book about that? I began to research a little and quickly settled with climate change as a topic. Far too broad. I read loads of scientific papers and decided it should be about the social aspects of climate change. Analyses of feminism, media representation of climate change included. Now that’s a topic I can work with. I wrote a bit and I read a bit and now suddenly it’s 12 000 words. This is going well.

The only problem: I’m a little bit overwhelmed by the dimensions of this project. The more I read the less I know. I am painfully aware of my ignorance and my following ancient concepts of society. I have to step past the rules and read everything I can get my hands on to be able to be a decent human being in writing about this.

This project gives me life, it gives me hope, and it gives me a purpose (why also keeping me putting words on a page every day).

Also I would like to give a huge thanks to the lovely women who commented on my post on feminism (https://verenacave.wordpress.com/2016/11/08/intersectionality-and-feminism/)


Thank you so much for you kind words, they really gave me back some energy to write on and to use my voice.

If you would like to point out any issues or questions I need to include in my book, please tell me! I would love to discuss them with you!


Advent Calendar 2016 #2

I Found a Story.

Dear December,

last night I found a story. It probably came to me because I freaked out about having none. Because I was desperately searching. Or maybe it was there all along and I didn’t notice it, wasn’t ready for it. You should write the novel you would want to read. So I sat down and wrote about what I wanted to read. Then I realised that it was actually a nice idea.

I need a plan. I always need one. Through many Ted Talks I have learned how to proceed. Imagine you book on a shelf. Where is it located? Next to which authors does it sit? That’s your genre. I figured, I’ll be writing a crime novel, a thriller, something along those lines. Write your idea down in one sentence. What is the book about? Break it down into a number of words. For mine it will probably be around 150 000. That’s a goal. Goals can be reached, abstract ideas cannot.

I will make my first plan in December and go on to write this whole thing in the following three months. 50 000 words a month. I have already done that twice. It was hard but not impossible. After that comes the most difficult part. To transform this disastrous first draft into something that is actually readable. Sort out the mess. Find all the flaws, make the characters more interesting etc etc. I tried to write in German today but I found that I have become so clumsy! The words do not flow anymore! I mean every book I read, every video I watch, every text I type is in English. It was never my intention to get so bad at my own mother tongue, though! It’s kind of frightening. Furthermore, because English isn’t my native language, I always feel insecure. I actually don’t know that many words and I haven’t grown up with it. Maybe my writing is extremely awkward and I don’t even notice! Please tell me honestly.

Lots of Love


Back to Drawing!

It’s been a while since I last drew a portrait and I missed it very much. I’ve been painting and doodling and most of all writing- not for pleasure but for uni. It’s good to do something though and to study topics more related to my study course this semester. A lot of biology, ecology…

So tonight I found a bit of time to draw and it was lovely! It’s Daisy from the most recent adaptation of the Great Gatsby.


Work in Progress

It’s been so long since I last posted anything and it’s because I’ve not been really good with portraits lately. Drawing yesterday completely messed up something I’ve been working on… So I got my graphic tablet out today and started some Easter cards. Here’s a little glimpse on what I’ve been working this whole evening. It takes sooo long!!!

I drew with Hannah yesterday and when I didn’t want to draw a portrait, I challenged her to give me words that I would have to draw. It was so fun! Drawing little characters and animals it got weirder and weirder… Character development is something I always wanted to master but never laid the focus on. However, my big dream is to illustrate a children’s book someday. I know it sounds unrealistic but maybe we need those sometimes.

Also: I passed Maths 😉 All the panic for nothing… Only one exam left and an essay for philosophy that I nearly finished today.

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Advent Calendar: 22nd

It’s not Christmas yet but I thought I could send a little wish to all of the Nerdfighters out there (and to everyone else, too of course 😀  )

Have a wonderful Christmas and DFTBA!

Lot of inside jokes and it took me ages to paint this with photoshop… But I did it, my first big digital artwork. It’s so great!!


nerdfighteriaand Hank Green retweeted it!!!! OMG, there are so many people who liked it and I’m freaking out a bit at the moment, it’s amazing…

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John Green and Cara Delevingne

Cara’s casting a role in the film ‘Papertowns’ directed by John Green who also wrote the book the story is based on. Unfortunately I can’t say I have read many books by him but I really want to. The fault in our stars is already in my book shelf. Which one would you recommend?

How do you like my little sketch? 🙂


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